And just when you think everythings tidy...there's another messy bit in your head !
Well see the thing is...its not in my head, its in someone else's, but the trouble is and I've just realised is, that I'm accepting it...
I think it was the Dalai Lama who said about anger, someone can project anger towards you but it is up to you whether you accept it and take it, that is, seeing it as 'yours' or rather your issue, or you can NOT accept it, or internalise it
Now I understand this concept, I do, and I've only just realised that this may be what I was doing, so with mindfullness in hand, I do not accept this issue as mine, because its not, so I am sending it back to its rightfull owner for them to sort out, or not, it's nothing to do with me, but I will not pander to it because of that
Yesterday I was doing something online that wasn't coming from me, it was thinking about others issues, and then projecting that issue into a far wider circle ! How complicated lives can become when you start trying to change how you feel depending on someone else's issue?
I suddenly thought wow this person has got me doing this and thinking about what that person would think etc etc and in the end you become someone your not, pandering to them ! well I know this is a healing blog but b******s sometimes you have to say no - and I have no issue with this person, I think its a shame that we cannot all share the good things in our lives. I've never done anything wrong to this person, so none of it makes any sense, I think its just a control issue? don't know and its not mine anyway, thats for them to sort
So I had to change what I was doing online, into what I truly feel, which I have! So, know that I am completely without issue and whether or not its accepted by others that can be affected by the same issues, at least everyone knows me and how I feel about it all
If I cannot be me, which never deems to hurt anyone, then I'm not being true to myself and others. Maybe I have blamed in the past, but once again I was just in the firing line, looking on at the negative results for everyone concerned, but now is now, and when we own our stuff, we take our power back...So I'm taking it back and sending out love ! cause I know that love is the key...